Right now I am alone. For the next two weeks I will be alone.
If I died, no one would realize it for another two weeks. (picture that stench!)
Hardin is on the way to Portugal via cruise ship with the Dorsey Orchestra. He will be lucky to e mail me just a few times because it's so expensive. From what he's said so far, it sounds like he's having the time of his life. He is so lucky to be blessed with such a great talent. I truly am happy for him.
However, I am not happy...
I have moved out of my environment of very happy and carefree people and have been put into an environment of careless intolerant assholes. I've tried to make friends, but no one really cares to get to know me. It's even been ions since I've heard from my Ohio friends and I really miss all of them.
I am not just unhappy, I am down right miserable. I hate my job. I don't even know if I want to be a teacher anymore. Infact, I don't know what I even want to do with my life. I don't really have any talents that make me stand out from a crowd. When I was five, I always pictured myself as being a rockstar. I wish it were that easy....
It's a true shame that I was not born stupid and gorgeous. If that was the case, then life would be a piece of cake. So many people would want to be associated with my beauty that it wouldn't matter what I said. That would be the life....